Well, I talked to my boyfriend yesterday, well more like this morning it was like 1 a.m. Well I guess I shouldn't even call him my boyfriend anymore. I think about him all the time. But I do respect his decision in every possible way. Well, lets see what else happend. Yesterday there was a huge fire at the local mortin salt factory. Of course dad had to go. So mom and I walked down there. Yes, we are the nosey ones LoL. Well I guess thats it for the day.

This song is chose because this is how I feel about my boyfriend/ex boyfriend no matter how far apart we are.. I am always dreaming of him no matter what. I love him.

SELENA...DREAMING OF YOU

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close 
But so far all I have a dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Corazón
I can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
Cómo te necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, cómo te extraño

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe 
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming of you endlessly

Dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Endlessly
And I'll be holding you tight
Dreaming...with you...tonight!

Well, my boyfriend has come to the conclusion that we aren't ready for a relationship. He says we moved to fast. And maybe I agree. He said it's not over. Which is good. I mean I respect him and what he wants. Maybe it's for the best. And to know that he and I still have a chance makes me feel a lot better about the situation. I will never stop loving him and he knows that. I just want to make him happy, even if it means I am hurting.:cry:

Time for the song of my mood. I chose this song because no matter what happens between us we still have eachother. We are still very very good friends and I am sure that we will continue our relationship when we are both ready. I do love him...

HANDS....JEWEL

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

<Yawn.> Well I didn't get up until 1:30 today. Probably because I didn't get to sleep until after 5. Well I have heard nothing but horror stories about a girl on here. FallinAngel something. Of course I'm not going to judge her I know nothing about her, but from what I know she seems to be a nice person. I won't be talking to my boyfriend until later today. I'm gonna miss him BUT I don't run his life. Thats the good thing about us, we don't have to be around one another 24/7. I'm watching Save The Last Dance it's pretty good movie. I'm more of the action war movies kinda gal. Ahh, it's okay though. My lips are chapped like you wouldn't believe and I bit my tongue. LoL. Well, I guess thats it for today, or for right now...Prepare for song of feelings...

I chose this song because it reflects how I feel about my boyfriend. I see his *true colors* I know who he is and I know that, that is who I love. He's not fake. He is who he is, he acts how he acts. Like me he doesn't care who says what...

~Hope~

True Colors...Cyndi Lauper

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh i realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But i see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And thats why i love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a Rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When i last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know i'll be there

And i see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And thats why i love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a Rainbow

Well, this is my first entry... umm I'm using tblog as a place to vent myself and my feelings. If you dont like anything I say, then please by all means. I dont want to hear it. Heres some stuff about me. I am with a wonderful guy. I have dreams and goals and he is here to support me in all my decisions. I am against the war. I plan to further my education and attend a nice school. I dont care what peoples views are of me, I dont try to impress anyone. I am who I am and if you dont like that then there is nothing I can do to stop you or change your mind. I'm not your average girl. I like to drink a beer and watch a football game. I live for who I am and who I plan to be. If you chose to get to know me GREAT! If not, thats cool too...I will post a song daily to express how I feel on this particular day...

Song of my days reflection...(yea this is something I do...) I chose this song because its how I feel about my boyfriend. There is no words in the world to express how I feel about him. Hes a great guy and he means the world to me...

Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad...Def Leppard

(Collen/Elliott/Lange)

Here I am, I'm in the wrong bed again
It's a game I just can't win
There you are breathin' soft on my skin
Still you won't let me in

(BRIDGE)
Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Babe let the moment take your heart away

(CHORUS)
Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby

There you go, midnight promises again
But they're broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster everyday babe
But in the morning you'll be gone
And I'm alone

repeat BRIDGE

repeat CHORUS

SOLO

Every dream I dream is like
Some kinda rash 'n' reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don't ever come
For me you're still the one
Damned if I don't, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you